Life's so complicated .

I'm not even sure about my own feelings . One day I wake up liking him more and more , and one day I wake up suddenly feeling numb . I'm afraid that I'll end up hurting people when I myself am not sure about my own feelings . I get jealous , I get mad , I get annoyed . But in the end looking at him still makes me smile , it hurts . But deep down inside I know that it would never work . So it's better to get hurt now then to get hurt later . I don't know what to do . Whether to let go fully or maybe just give it a little time . Only God knows what will happen . I need my freedom .