Don't you just hate . . .

Don't you just hate it when your mind keeps on remembering the things you don't want to remember ? It's hard to forget about someone you want to forget when you still remember the little things they tell you , the little things about them . Like the way they smile , the way they play with your hair , the way they hold your hands , the way they look at you . It does sound like total bullshit . You try so hard to forget . You feel stupid for remembering . Just by a single scent , a single word or even by a single song , your memory can be triggered . The only way to forget , is to remember the bad things they did to you . That way , the hatred you felt will always stay there. And it stays there forever . Just when you're about to sleep , all the memories come flashing back in your head . The tears you shed is useless . You keep reminding yourself that you shouldn't cry over such a stupid thing . So you eventually stop crying . But that doesn't make you feel any better . It just gets worse and worse . I convinced myself that things WILL get better because there's always a rainbow after a rainstorm . I believe in myself . I will get better . I don't like to tell everything to others cus I know that they don't care . I'd rather keep it to myself . It's better that way . I bet that other people get tired of my stories . I'm writing it here because I know that not everyone will read this til the very end . You'll eventually get tired reading halfway , so you stop . Yeah , I know what you feel . Don't you just hate it when you only realise you forgot to do something right when you're about to sleep ? You forgot to lock the door . Maybe . You forgot to brush your teeth . Maybe . You forgot to charge your phone . Bitch , you better charge that phone of yours . You forgot to iron your clothes . You forgot that one homework you're supposed to pass up the next morning or you'll literally die . HAH , me . always . everyday *throws confetti at your butt* You forgot to turn off the stove . Okay . You basically have 2 choices . Whether you'll wake up earlier in the morning to do everything you forgot to do , or you just go the fuck to sleep because you're so tired . You're tired cus you decided to sleep at 2am after such a long day ON THE INTERNET congratufuckinglations *throws confetti at your face* Wait the stove ? you forgot to turn it off ? That's okay . When someone screams "FIRE ! THE HOUSE IS ON FIRE !" you'll probably be too tired to even wake up and save your life , whoops calm down bitch it's just a fire *goes back to sleep* yeah , well see you in hell bitch . Okay about the other choice , wake up earlier ? Pfft . Yeah right .Wake up earlier MAH ASS . You'll probably wake up later than usual . Right when you wake up and realise that you're late , you'll start swearing , just too much to feel better . Then you go to school . Well if you're lucky , the subject of the homework that you were supposed to do TWO WEEKS AGO , isn't on the first period , or the second period , so you could eventually do your homework at THAT time . Or maybe if you're luckier your teacher will be absent ! OMG WOW LOOK AT THAT YOUR TEACHER IS ABSENT ON THE DAY THAT YOU FORGOT TO DO YOUR HOMEWORK HOW FUCKING LUCKY . nope . Never gonna happen bitch . They're always present . Look who's the luckiest person on the planet ? Not you , obviously . LOL . okay . okay . okay , I'm so bored . I wanted to go to Guardian or Watsons or any type of drug store to buy my things , but HOW ! There's no car for me to use . How can this day be any worse ??? Okay then . Toodles homies .