Bad Luck .

So far , this has been the WORST year for me . Like seriously , everything has been so fucking bad . I can't even describe how bad it has been for me . The worst part is that I can't even tell my best friends about it . Even if I tell , it wouldn't make any difference anyways . So why bother telling ? I just feel like murdering the people who have made my life harder . These kind of people shouldn't even exist in this world . They're like parasites in this world , they do nothing but harm everyone around them . There are a lot of people who pisses me off . First of all , fucking corrupted people . These kind of parasites , heh . They think they have the money and power that they think they can control everyone just like their dogs . These kind of people DESERVES to rot in hell . I bet they don't even believe in hell . Some of these so called "rich Malay people" are Muslims just by their religion , just so that they can get contracts and everything (just so you know it's hard to get any contracts if you're not Malay "muslim" in Malaysia)but do you know that they eat pork ? Yeah , my sister's boyfriend told me . Even your beloved Dato' M's granddaughter eats pork . Hah . How do I know that ? I know la :b lol . My sister's bf went to the same school as her , so yeah . That's how I know . Jangan mau sanjung sangat la orang yg makan duit kita orang semua . Secondly , I hate liars . They're so good at pretending . How can someone lie straight to your face ? Danggg . You're so good honey you should get an award for that . I don't get it , how do all these people get away with all these lies for such a long time ? Well , you just need to know that no matter how good you are at lying , you're still gonna get caught eventually . What goes around comes around baby . You have no idea how much hatred I have in this heart of mine right now towards all the bullshit that has been happening to me . This year has also been the most unproductive year for me . Really unproductive . Thirdly , I hate fake people . I can always differentiate whether you're genuinely nice to me or you're just being fake . If you dont like me then dont talk me . Why are you still trying to be nice to me when you dont like me ? Fourth , I hate how people don't even TRY to see the good intentions that we're giving them . Our good intentions tend to mess us up . After things get fucked up , you'll be the one to blame . Why ? Why can't other people TRY to see that we tried our best to please them ? Why can't they just take time to appreciate the things we try to do for them . Why ? You try to wash clothes , your washing machine gets broken , you get blamed . You try to wash the dishes and accidentally broke the glasses , you get blamed . You try to decorate your sister's painting and you accidentally spill glue on it . You get blamed and scolded at the same time . You see those examples ? What else can you say ? You try and try and try . I looked back at my old posts and realised how childish I was back then . Love does make you look stupid . The things you say , the things you do . All . . . stupid . But at that time you were in love , you didn't care . You never cared what people say . But now when you look back at everything , it is stupid . The weird thing about me is that , I care too much about what other people might think . How stupid huh ? It's not easy to change into someone better , it's not easy to change your ugly attitude . But you NEED to try . As long as you try and not give up , you might just change into something better . I did a lot of things that I regret and wish to change . But I realised , I can't change the past no matter how hard I try . The past is the past . All you need to do is change . Into something better . Let the past be a lesson for you to be a better person in the future . Another type of person that I hate . Hot-tempered kind of person . Well , I do admit that I'm kind of a hot-tempered person at times(or seasons) . But I wouldn't want a hot-tempered boyfriend :o nonono . I wouldn't want that lol . Let me be the one to scold my bf . Haha . Watch out future bf . I'm kinda tired , this place is a wreck . Seriously . I'm in LD , we're gonna celebrate my dad's birthday here . But seriously , urgh . Just thank God for the wifi ! Or I just might die out of boredem .